Sunday, January 3, 2016

Safe, and with a new lease on life

It’s been a wild ride in the last few months. But the good news is:
I’m well. Finally.

After discovering that the last med, Saphris, was making me terribly hungry and causing me to gain weight rapidly, my pdoc took me off it. At this point I had a two-and-a-half year history of medications either not working, making me more bipolar, or severely aggravating my eating disorder. It seemed like I was going to have to pick being very bipolar or being very eating disordered. I was running out of medication options, or so it felt. Things were bad. Very, very bad.  

But life had other plans for me.

The first week in September I got an email about “News on Bipolar Disorder” from a reputable health website. The link inside led me to another reputable health information website, where I found a list of mood stabilizers for bipolar disorder. But on that list I saw a drug I’d never seen before. It’s a migraine medication that in rare cases of bipolar disorder can act as a mood stabilizer.

Lithium and lamictal made my bipolar disorder worse. I don’t experience extreme elation. I cycle mildly multiple times within a day. I’m clearly a rare case of bipolar disorder.  

So I did more research. With how quickly I cycle I’m considered to be “Ultradian cycling bipolar.” With how mild my elation is, I’m considered to be type-II bipolar. The more digging I did, the more I found that this particular med does nothing for people with type I bipolar but can help some people with type II bipolar, particularly if they are rapid-cycling. Ultradian cycling bipolar is the medical term for “rapid-rapid-cycling” bipolar (multiple mood swings in a day).

Also, this particular med seemed to have no incidence of weight gain. If anything, it caused weight loss.

So I marched into my pdoc’s office and said, “What are your thoughts on this med?” and he said, “At this point, can’t hurt to try.” So he sent me home with a script.

Three days later, my disabling, hopeless crying jags were gone. My giggling fits had dissipated. Five days later, my mood swings had stopped.

I was a normal person.

It was nothing short of a miracle.
It’s taken a few tweaks since, including adding another med to address some of the cardiac problems that have come up from this particular med. And we’ve also got me on an anti-depressant to make sure that everything’s completely covered and I’m stable.  But I learned one thing.

Personalized medicine matters. And I don’t just mean personalized attention.

It took me three days of research to find the med that matched up with my symptoms. Picking a med was three years of throwing darts at a dart board while blindfolded. Before we picked the last med I ran my list of meds against a database of gene targets for drugs. The drug I found that stopped my cycling targeted a particular gene. Nothing else I’ve been on targeted that gene. So when we picked the second med, we looked at meds that targeted that gene. And voila, the med worked!  We got it right the first time! 

Likely, I’ve got a problem with this one gene. In the future if we need to tweak my meds, now we can start with meds that target that gene. And we don’t even need to do a genetic test. We’re not shooting blindly anymore. 

My morning and evening psych meds:

A migraine med as a mood stabilizer
A mild anti depressant
Three allergy pills because I'm allergic to the anti depressant (no other AD worked) 
A med to lower the high heart rate that I got from the mood stabilizer (but which has off label use as a mood stabilizer--this is the one we picked based on the genetic information.)
An anti-anxiety med.

That's it. 

Three years ago they thought I needed this:

Is it any wonder I was sicker then? 

I can't say I'm cured. I still have down days and up days, and they're more down nd up than the normal people I know. But it's not crippling anymore. 

Amen for personalized medicine.


  1. Good to hear you're feeling better. It always fascinates and troubles me when patients need to work so hard to find better treatments.

    1. Thanks for the well wishes. Science certainly has a long way to go, and psychiatry definitely still does. But I am very glad I don't live even 50 years ago. I couldn't imagine having lived with mental health problems back then. It makes me feel lucky about my current treatment.

  2. So good to read a post from you, and to hear that you have found medications that work for you. YEY!! Xx

    1. Thanks for the well wishes! Sorry it took so long to reply to your comment. Hope you're well and thank you for still reading!

  3. Funny I was just getting ready to email you to check up! I'm so glad to hear that you're finding the right med combo!!!!! Love to you & I hope everything else is looking up too 😊

    P.s. Yay for being able to common my phone since I can't on my computer

    1. I was realizing I probably owed you an update as well, glad the post was able to suffice in the meantime! Things are definitely looking up. Hope things are going well for you, and also that your home organization business is doing well too! *hugs*


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